Crowrider: Learning From Limitation
If you are anything like me, one week into the New Year you may be sharing my current prayers. Please, please Universe, Let me return to the order and rhythm of my own life. Please, please Universe, Let me return to my own body, my own purpose and goals. Please, please Universe, Let me be provided for and supported. Please, please Universe, Let me find the daily and weekly structures that will help me move my goals forward. I don’t think I’m the only one that marvels at how much time and energy it takes to return from the rituals and sacred festivals of this season. What I notice about my...
Read MoreCrowrider: Hidden Boxes, Messages from the Past
Since mid-October, I’ve spent every spare second I have, many long three-day weekends, at my mother’s getting her house ready to sell. Sorting through closets, drawers, garages, trunks, rummaging through old photos, baby cloths, letters, old jewelry, etc. My mom has lived at this house for 20 years. There’s a lot of stuff to go through. We are also painting bathrooms, updating hardware, reframing broken artwork, repotting plants, selling old beds, buying new ones, and putting together IKEA furniture for the staging of the house. We are re-viewing and re-making a life. Astrologically,...
Read MoreCrowrider: Entering The Dream Cave and Living Your Dreams
Hearing the Call As we enter the deep heart of Autumn, we feel the loss of light and the darkness beckons us. At this time, I am aware of a familiar turn within, as the soul hears the changing of the drum beat. She is guided now, not by the light of the outer sun, but by a subtle glow of barely burning embers within. Some of you may hear the drum calling you into the dream cave and resist it. Many of us are still scared of the dark. So much of our identity is anchored out there in other’s approval, in tangible accomplishments, and in our outer role as mother, father, or friend. In the old...
Read MoreCrowrider: The Art of Relationship
With four planets in Libra (Sun, Saturn, Mercury and Venus) my mind and experience is centered on relationships. This astrological concentration is highlighted this week by the full moon in Aries (Tuesday the 11th) and the ongoing transit of Uranus through Aries, who’s opposing energies really light up the ongoing tension between our need for radical, individual freedom and our longing for and commitment to our relationships. As this topic of Self and Other has been meandering through my awareness this living inquiry has been fed by two things: 1) collaborating on a art show and 2) reading...
Read MoreCrowrider: What’s Erupting? Welcoming Reactivity
I’d like to make a space for reactivity – a big, welcoming invitation for it. It deserves a space. So much of my personal and academic study has been focused on how to be responsive rather than reactive, to be consciously creative rather than unconsciously re-enacting the same repetitive story over and over. I still strongly believe in the power of waking up from reactive trance states and towards an awareness of how we are affected and the empowerment of choice. But, for this post I want to pause and just say I have a lot of new respect for reactivity. About two weeks ago I caught...
Read MoreCrowrider: Remembering What I Value
This summer has been such a wonderful liberating time for me providing me with the space to really review and reaffirm my own dreams and recipe for happiness. After the pressure of four years of academic work and my current “all-but-dissertation” status – I started the summer under the effects of a pretty heavy and unrelenting internal taskmaster. I wasn’t having much fun, I felt lethargic and certainly wasn’t getting much work done on my dissertation. I knew something needed to free itself, I just didn’t know how or what. And then I received an unexpected gift – a European...
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